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Personal, Thoughts, CurrentTuesday, 26 July 2005 10:37 pm

It’s a sign of the times to see vested policemen standing guard outside No. 10, Downing St. I was sprawled on the floor, staring dumbly at the screen as talking heads gave their varied opinions on Tony Blair’s after the live telecast of his press conference. Robin Oakley, speaking for CNN, looked pasty white and for a while I wondered what possessed a man to wear foundation. It was an idle thought, but his anaemic-looking face brought to mind the morbid image of a people on death-watch.

Waiting for the next bomb.

I can hardly remember Conrad’s ‘The Secret Agent’, and much of it was spent delving into the particular psyche of the insurgent, I seem to remember. But an image that has stuck to mind are the bright, almost shimmering descriptions of the Crystal Palace, an important landmark at the time in the UK, I’m led to believe, but which holds not a bit of real significance for me.

I didn’t know what that erstwhile insurgent was fighting for, I was caught up in the image of a cannibalistic Europe devouring itself in reaction to its sheer comportment to the mechanical. It echoed like Hawkmoon’s glorified and bloody response against a familiar, mechanical, inhuman ‘Granbretan’, no doubt a transparent play on “Great Britain”, in Moorcock’s stories.

Maybe it was that familiar reaction of the organism, of the organic, of the holistic against the stretched and skewed duality of that Modern age that captured my imagination at the time; my lecturers used to insist that the antecedents of that ‘war about nothing’, World War I, could be found prophesied by literary minds who had, before the fact, seen and predicted the madness that would grip a civilization uprooted from its own centre by its very hands.

Like a dog gnawing at its own leg to be free of the steel jaws of some hunter’s trap.

Just after 11 September 2001, that vicious horror, Samuel Huntington and Francis Fukuyama both presented views that were oddly similar in their call for a another sort of convenient duality, a another schism of abstractions to explain away the coming (existing?) conflict.

To think we made some progress in the ’60s, stumbling away from convenient dualisms of the past only to fling ourselves headlong into yet another one, this time between the ‘West and Islam’ cast definitively in a ridiculous “either/or”.

At the time, part of our own private readings revolved around the implied dualism between Hegel and Nietzsche, attempting to evince a phenomenological perspective of the works of both thinkers. We were young, we were stupid, we were ambitious and ultimately, we gave up upon witnessing the horror of those two twisted hunks of metal dissolving in clouds of dust and tortured girders.

XM sank into a strange sort of reverie. He had, by that time, developed and adopted a keen sense of the place of a class of the elite, of the aristocrat; I don’t mean this in its lowest form or implication. That and his incisive cynicism – incisive, really, and oh, the walls of irony he could dart behind – became more and more pronounced.

Joyce wrestled with her own demons, alternating between the authentic and the worry-unto-death. She’s still caught up and lost in her own metamorphosing mazes.

I wrestled with the implications of that bombing cast against the subject of my thesis, by now submitted, and by now – to me – all the more stark. It disillusioned me further to that laudable, but ultimately naïve project of a philosophized hermeneutics.

You wouldn’t believe how hard-lined we became, then. As I said, we were young. In turns, we found justifications in the tyranny under which Athens persisted; we found justifications for action, for the will to act, in Mills; we argued long and loudly over characterising, rightly or wrongly, the anachronism we thought Islam to be – a pitiful artefact of the pre-Modern. We even agreed that staring into the abyss would now be justified, under just these sorts of conditions, when the very ideals propounded by democracy had seemed to become our own weaknesses.

We became warped in our adherence to that convenient “either/or”; it’s easy to get lost in the need for some kind of vengeance, though none of us had any personal and/or immediate attachment to those 3,000 plus who died. Fortunately, some conclusions stand in time, stand in large vacuum vats unaffected by changing circumstances. These conclusions tend to become anachronisms.

I was thinking of all this while watching that hour-long press conference. A call to fight not just the methods but the ideals of the terrorist. A call to fight the rhetorical slants that often equate the aspirations of the Muslim world with the methods of the radical few.

“It’s time we stop thinking, ‘oh, we disagree with their methods but maybe there’s a sliver of truth, a justification for their ideas‘” — Tony Blair

Remarks by an Al Jazeera reporter struck home; Tony Blair barely flinched, but you could see his mind working, and when he replied, you could see his exasperation. It was unsurprising that he focused on terrorism as being wrong, but could only prescribe democracy as the cure for the ills Muslims in the Middle East and beyond have been trying to push into the light.

Without doubt, such an ephemeral cure can only mean nothing to the Muslim, living in the immediacy of his or her plight.

Worst, on the most superficial level, would presenting ‘democracy’ as the solution serve to strengthen arguments of a ‘Clash of Civilization’, of subsuming the Muslim world under the blanket of democracy, an artefact of the ‘West’?

Where will bombs go off next, this time?

Internet, Autowerks 5:00 pm

The normal disclaimers apply: i’m just linking the video clip, and the clip in no way expresses my utter disgust at the um thing, the thing they said. I didn’t upload the clip, I’m just linking it.

The things they were saying, I mean, bloody brits thinking we make cars in a jungle clearing! Bastards!

Clip is from the… was it the 10th July ‘05 broadcast of Top Gear? Not sure.

Said clip mentioned anew (news of this made an appearance about 2 weeks back) in this thread, Topgear video savvy humiliation here.

Direct link here.

On a serious note, they don’t really have a good opinion about Protons over there, and consequently take a rather dim, if not insulting, view of Malaysians.

Update: the above links don’t seem to be working anymore. Paultan.org has put up a page hosting the vid. Check it out here.

Politics, Autowerks 2:12 pm

Hot off the presses, Bernama has an article spotted at Screenshots on the press conference given by Dr. Mahathir on the much talked-about non-renewal of Mahaleel’s contract with Proton Berhad.

Jeff Ooi detects some bitterness from the press release, which could be substantiated by the following:-

“Apparently there was no willingness to consider (Tengku) Mahaleel’s views so he refused to sign and the board decided not to renew his contract,” Dr Mahathir told a press conference here today.

and here:

Dr Mahathir also said Tengku Mahaleel’s ability to run Proton was cramped after he was removed from the chairmanship of major Proton subsidiaries.

But it seems Mahathir won’t let sleeping dogs lie. I received an SMS alert from The Star stating that Mahathir considers the AP list just revealed to be incomplete.. and he’s now demanding for the release of the 2004 list of AP recipients.

I suppose no one knows what’s going through his head, but I do think he might be acting recklessly, and trading on the goodwill he’s built up over his years in office. To what extent is he willing to pursue the matter?

I can only imagine Mahaleel’s leaving as a blow to Mahathir’s efforts to, perhaps, retain some control over his last remaining pet project. That’s perhaps not to say that Mahathir privately agrees with Mahaleel’s policies, maybe, but since this is speculation it should be disregarded.

Both seem to have a particularly acute aversion to any major foreign involvement, a mentality that would do the UMNO Youth proud with its undertones of affirmative action.

This dismantling of the old guard, this transitory phase between the Mahathir era and a post-Mahathir era makes for interesting drama at the very least. Taking apart power structures and making way for new ones shouldn’t be surprising and I suppose, happens in any regime. It’s what gets cast into the light that, more often than not, disappoints and reaffirms my abhorence for the incumbent.

Bloody bastards, all of them.

Personal 1:11 am

It’s like a diabolic embrace, this sinking into her arms. You play the conversations in your head like the future-past, knowing what she’d say. You could reach out to wipe away her shallow tears and she says this and that but the words that spill forth are names names her names.

And you could enjoy that embrace, knowing your words hover between the indifferent and the uncaring, because she looks away and her eyes are elsewhere. Like a wisp of air in her arms, drawn in her every intake of breath.

You could imagine yourself insinuating like wreaths of feeling across the nape of her neck and beyond, because she looks elsewhere.

Imagine the irony of her words, you know the words now by heart. “Passing clouds”, and at times, even her most desperate explanations must dissolve into that simple expression, “alone”.

And you could then lie in her embrace, savouring her self-pity and making it your own.