This week’s been one big “WTF” moment.
As most whines go, I hope this is one’s the least self-piteous or self-flaggelating. Chances are, this one will be a whole load of crap accumulated over the weeks. I need a break from work, but knowing this means also knowing that I can’t afford to stop now; it’s got nothing to do with ‘rooting for the team’ since I’m pretty ambivalent about ‘the team’ in the first place. It’s just the usual demands from people who are too used to getting what they want, and I mean clients, not bosses.
(Well, ok, we should include bosses in the above.)
My brother’s suddenly gone all religious on me while I wasn’t looking. It’s definitely a cause for surprise, since he’s been out of it for some time now. I wonder if he does it out of obligation or because he really finds something in the whole deal. I reacted with cynicism at first, then gave it further thought once my initial sneers were vented in private. If he finds something worthwhile in heading back to Church, more power to him.
Which leaves me with a boatload of responsibilities I wish I didn’t have, but am strangely happy I do — it’s like the work that you wish you didn’t have to do, but are happy to do if it serves to keep your mind occupied. And since it can become pretty complex, it means focusing on what I’m doing from moment to moment, so the inevitable thoughts are kept at bay.
One of my colleagues has started to take my advise, and I’ve got to get a few forms and such for him. He’d been told to spend the weekend thinking about what he has to get done to get his department in order. I’m helping him, but behind the scenes with structural stuff and nothing really deep into his territory. He has his own way of dealing with things, and I’m pretty proud of the way he’s been handling his shit (maybe I’ve got a sense of ownership that’s unwarranted, but hey, he’s a friend and more).
Work has settled into an unnerving routine. Besides the one riotous idiot I have to deal with and face every single day, I wonder if I can manage it all. I don’t want to list it all out, since my head’s throbbing with lists of things to do and not yet done, and I’ve resorted to sleeping about 4-5hours a day to get it settled, to be prepared for the October exams.
